Revelation Of Naturally Awakened Notions

I miss you...

          Heart of my soul 

I always have. 

Since the first step you took to run. 

And 

     to the last. 

However brief our run had been, 

  Didn't you feel its impact, an imprint,    embossed upon us? 

    

I'd always felt you had, 

  Regardless of the pawning games you played 

   Upon Our 

        Chess board

                             Mr. Rabbit

Revelations 

Of 

Naturally

Awakened

Notions 

Not Artifice 

  But truer than anything, 

 We then, understood 

and

what would become only more profound with time. 

It is Our Mystery. 

Our nature of unraveling

Individually, separate from one another 

         and together. 

Untouched, 

  and barely scathed. 

Barely experienced in our love at all, 

  Hadn't we been? 

But it was you, 

  Who would undo, 

Everyone before you. 

  and everyone after.

Darling. Once had I touched your innocence, and you had guided my hand to do so. 

It touched me enough, 

  That I could never let go...

Regardless of every tactic trialed. 

As once then, 

  I feel you now...

Here, and not. 

  Absent and hot

  Holding my weeping body, 

  While I assess your prolifieries 

 Outlined in telepathic midnight draping 

Living in between, 

  So we can meet between our worlds.

and I lay no consequence or shackle 

  Upon understanding this...

for it is not only my choice, 

  But yours as well. 

I wonder have you chosen, 

  All this silence, 

  Like eyes scrying? 

All this air, 

  Gassed by flame in my scarlet nights 

All this fire, burning thresh holds in me 

  Ready to bare, and ready to break. 

All this water, My Love...

All my emotions are yours to take. 

My cups pour over, 

  However I must purge the mud and soot 

   From this water, 

That it might 

   Run Clean. 

I know Darling...

  It wasn't much, 

 

Our two times together brief...

But you did perhaps do what you meant to. 

You indemnified 

  A lasting impression upon me. 

Serendipity actually. 

   A lot Like Love actually. 

And it was not just your voice this time, 

  Or lusting seductions in between...

It was not typewritten messages 

  Or diluted secrets and daydreams 

It was us together once again, 

  proving I hadn't needed your body and touch

 

To love you then...

Proving still, 

I love you now...

         .... and to this day....

Seeing you, 

  In the flesh, 

Those two, 

  Our two days...

Not being able to say anything we wanted to say...

  really. 

It was familiar nonetheless. No shock value other than you before me finally 

and a presence of mine, 

  Taken in yours. 

Wasn't the love there, as always? 

  Unflaunted. 

 Danced around?

An elephant in our corner of the room, 

  at all times? 

That wasn't the surprise: 

  Loving you so naturally. 

Validating what I had known years, so many years now before...

That I did indeed love you 

  Indelibly...

  Before you shut that door.