Your Arcana

 

When I hadn't known, 

I realized the universe would not make it complicated for me; 

That I am the confusing principle. 

I could move it around in my head 

   and in my heart, 

a million different ways. 

I could justify the turns I take. 

I can scold myself and reprimand my inner stirrings. 

I can doubt my mind, as it develops to reason 

  and place the events, 

  the psyche dislodging, 

  The interpretations running wild....

But when I calm...

When I steady...

When I ground...

When I rest into NOT Doubting myself...

It all starts to assemble, 

  and perhaps sense can be made afterall, 

Out of and after the storm, 

Which I have always believed was necessary 

 to examine, as it shows up to reek havoc on 

"Our Sound" little lives. 

Yes...

The signs are legible, but it is fear that places the cards face down, 

So we don't have to look. 

And if ever there was a sign, 

I realized this would be it; 

That his Capricorn shows up as "the Devil." 

That Your Twin Soul, shows up as "The Lovers". 

Both Major Arcana. 

Answering my final question. 

(Mine, "The Star")

"Perfect Match" finalizing my intuitive notions, 

against the doubt, 

against the trauma, 

against the baggage, bandaged and carried. 

"Perfect Match" framing what I have long suspected, 

 Showing again, 

And again, 

And maybe it is okay to wonder then?

It was a touching of the soul, no one, not even him, could deny us. 

It was an imprint. 

Hard, 

   and Rapid, 

and Furious with intent. 

Neither one of us expecting. Neither one us able to make sense 

Out of our souls bondage to the other. 

Denied, we would ravage against what then took place. 

As the energies shift...something of a trancendence has altered 

  My inner Air

It has removed me many degrees, from my life; its notioned path.  

Now, I live in a secret world I have denied him. 

One where in nearly every moment, 

I wonder what it would be like instead, 

To live in my Lover's arms. 

In this space...I dwell now. 

Deep in my heart is where I have retreated...

Locking up the gates once more.