[The remark was arrogant; shameless, as he cockily grinned at me.
"What do you mean by that?", I asked.
"Well I turned one friend against you!
and the other I had like a coward, licking his wounds in the corner, with his tail tucked between his legs"...]
Yes....you did, "don't" you?
Now bragging to my face,
....making me temper underneath, to a low boil,
over what you took then, those years ago, and the dent it left;
Over what you did to me, which now burns of an embossed imprint
On my heart,
Because of you.
Because of Him.
Yes you did. Do that.
Yes, you did:
Pry Him away from me.
Yes you did:
Use HIM as YOUR weapon to shatter ME
regardless
of
my already broken, drowned, and shipwrecked soul;
my mashed heart.
A heartbreak, of which all
I truly needed was the solace of a friendship- something you both betrayed
and took away.
Yes you did use My Love to hold me under, forcibly and callously
While I gasped for my life's breath back.
I know you did.
I just don't think you really see...
What it is you have done here
Because we live there now;
in that moment in time,
the three of us- the two of us- me!
Where You stole away from US what was OURS,
and brag about the conquest, elusive to you, that a heart can not be won
By killing off it's love...
No...
Our Love-
It was Ours to wreck.
Ours to break.
Ours to do with as we pleased.
But YOU
used Him,
to Devastate me!
(And while I know He did too)
It is YOU, I blame.
It is YOU, I am angry with over taking him away from me.
You stole from me, someone I deeply loved;
Someone I needed, someone I wanted
You stole him, back...
For yourself, and you poisoned his heart,
And his mind,
Only further, not to trust me ( or love me )...
Our Love never mattered to you!
I suppose...why would it?
But we both know it was ME that you wanted!
And at ANY cost??
You made sure,
Him and I
NEVER had a chance...
He went along with it. Perhaps Naive. Perhaps angry...
And you lied to him, I think...but I do not know.
Whatever you said,
You confess,
Was
To turn my beloved against me;
To turn me,
...Away from Him!
He knows what he sacrificed...
But I'm really not so sure YOU see what you have done here?
For of us now,
you have created and infernal and eternally burning Sun,
As you stole from Us,
Our time.
As You postponed what was ours and you shifted fate,
Against Angelic will.
Afterall, though...
The fault at root could have been mine...
For I mentioned His name to YOU,
At the time...
and THAT,
Would prove to be
The beginning,
Of the End,
As I am sure it was there and then
That you set course,
To wreck this.
I remember...
You, love, pretended to be my friend
while you asked me questions about him.
You feigned sympathy and told me he wouldn't be ready for me for at least another 10 years...
Now 13 years ago and then.
But...
I have no idea what you said.
All I know is it tore my heart out-
the last time I really remember being wrecked
Before you
came in (again)...
....trouble being...
I'm pretty sure, He...
He...
Took it with him..
When he left.
He took my heart from me...
And then...
YOU sent him away..
From me.. heart in hand,
and all...
and I'm pretty sure that's where it ends.
But what then?
Do you expect of me?
*(Still drafting finalized details on this one)
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