The Reconciling

 

I need magic. 

 I am all too aware...

That it is probably unreal. 

You have barely spoken a conversation with me in 12 years...

Less the time 

He drove ME to YOU. 

You, messaging me only months before He would take me in his life. 

and only words of nonsense. 

Timing is funny like that I suppose. 

Was he the universe bridging our gap, 

  in some karmic irony of all things? 

No.... I mean...

  I don't suppose...

  unless you do too? 

No...

I imagine...

It is just my need to fill a void for love...

  That just yet, has not been met. 

I keep trying to release you...

Maybe it's time

I succeeded. 

No...

I suppose I will just face what is in front of me. 

What I have here. 

and try to adjust my sight. 

My face hurts. I'm annoyed. 

and in bed. Un-encouraged to move. 

and hanging on to an illusion 

Likely long ago, 

Moved on. 

So must I.