Get Free: "In the Spirits"

 

I can not chase it away in the spirits. 

I can not elate myself 

  Out of the trenches, 

but betcha,

    I have tried! 

Somedays, I inhale nicotine

  to ease the depravity...

And it is succulent and of flowers- 

 easy to inhale 

Hide away. 

Stow away.

My cough, Bronchial. 

Once asked, "How as a healer, do you come to terms with the smoking?", 

Nudging of course the question, "How do you justify it?" 

The answer has been very simple

for a very long time: 

It is my "addictive mind":

    My shadow self that has not reconciled yet it's anxiety, 

It's angst, 

It's trauma...

But I am..

I am...

Working on it. 

One step at a time, as they say. 

I like that motto; live by it...

One DAY at a time....

and then we can roll onto 

   and worry about the next. 

Nonetheless...

I can not chase it away.

It is you, Dear Love...

  and it is me. 

It is what in this union we breed...

And I...

  But I...

I want to go higher. 

I want you to follow me...

 nonetheless, just know

I have to get free.