Will make it you.
Not the food addictions that I knock down now...
One by one...
Not the mini-compulsions..
Distract..distract...
From the feeling...
I stop
Myself...
And process it
Within...
And call Mary, my sister
And my mom...
But I....
Don't call
You....
Or tell you...
Because I don't want to imagine that you do
Or don't care...
I don't want to imagine anymore...
If it is pretend.
The tears have me dazed and fogged
As accounts are scooped up
And made
Each passing day.
As I toke up...
And breathe in the fog...
Of walking in-between realms.
Miss you?
Like a painter needs a palate.
Like a canvas marries her colour.
But I just breathe up
The clouds...
And watch the time become away with what it becomes.
Today, it is a broken car window.
Somedays, It's a broken heart;
A broken body.
A death.
A part (of you).
Today...
It is a day off...
A day with...
And in my own Garden, I'm revived by the fragrant flowers and love and wonderous imaginings that dwell there...
But, I also...
Dream of seeing your face,
Just behind 'scaping vines...
Coming through the porthole
Of the secret garden we share.
Who ever said it was just mine?
Some
Had been previously
Invited.
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