A Treacherous Torment

 

Anything is better than this. 

  It is a tragedy of torment of the mind. 

COME HOME and FIGHT with me then! 

  Let it all spew, 

So I can YELL at you, and I pound my hands against your chest, 

  And collapse there after in your arms! 

Anything is better than this. Wordless. 

I long for the intimacy, at this point of a FIGHT.  

  Let us put down all formalities. All pretense. Let us get straight into the nitty gritty! 

Yell at me what you need to say! As long as you say it! 

And if you are done, then you need to let me go! 

But do not hang here in the balance, 

Torturing me so. 

My mind has split again lately. 

I stare at the tv, but do not care to understand the plot. Hiding there instead, in my thought. 

Let us skip all formalities, 

  and go straight to the fight. 

You will see how much I loved you, then. 

 After my ANGER spills out, 

after you let yourself LASH out at me. 

I will take it. I will fight it, but I will take it, and we need to be consumed by our flame once more, 

Instead of snuffing it out like this. 

Are you done? 

Is this it? 

This is the last juncture you have at turning fate. 

  I am inching towards an isle. 

   Speeding towards that place, 

As destinies set to lock in. 

As seeds are planted in my womb, and soon....

Will not all be lost? 

 To us, you and I? 

Considering letting the world burn down. 

  If maybe after all, 

 Your company 

Is all I may really need. 

Can you understand or fathom this? 

I am ripped between two destinies, 

  But this one here...

How absent and minus of it you are. 

  How chaotic and draining 

And is this meant to be my future? 

All this? 

The road splits. 

I have no reason to venture down the second avenue, 

Though I know it leads to where my heart has long been 

But if you want to leave the record where it stands, 

I will chalk this all up to the delusion you laid before me. 

That this has all been some mere fantasy, obsession that has no merit; 

An illusion you created. 

A state where I had no worth with you...

No future...

No value...

And if this is true. Then you, 

Remain in your shadows 

And I will remain in mine. 

Worlds away, 

But then I beg you...

Please let this go. 

And if you won't. 

Then I am here, awaiting our fight. 

For there is so much I'd like to know.