Dancing the Weight Away

I am not myself.

I
Am the body of my emotions
And
Affairs.

I
Am not myself.
I am tired, and lethargic
Longing
And pushing.

I...
Am not myself, so much,
Sitting here, feeling here, panic bubbling up,
Scaring me
To
Death.

I
Am not
Myself.

Here.
Body thirsted from coffee, thirsting from deprave...
Thirsting-
The air is dry
On earth.

I
Am tired.
And not so much myself anymore
Remembering
In slow motion;
In ancient time-
An earthly time...

And my bones had gone weak,
And my muscles,
Hopeless...

I however..
Got up and danced today!
And SHE
Is really quite phenomenal...

When nobody
Is looking
Afterall...