In Love & War: Holy Union

 

What I know...

  is vastly underrated. 

It is not the geo-political 

  or newspapers I intrigue myself by. 

It is not the history 

  Or natural curiosity than burns in me 

Ponderances  

  after ponderances. 

It is, 

What I am. 

Be it Love. 

  Be it Resilience. 

     Be it Dedication & Devotion. 

I am something much more profound. 

I am a connection to the Divine

Be Cause THAT 

    is what I WILL. 

I am this connection 

  for better or worse, 

and it provides me not always clarity, 

But in the least, 

Vast plains of insight. 

I am...

   Light. 

Not just some statement you make, 

  But a Resonance. 

    A Body. 

An electromagnetic wavelength, 

  That can vary. 

     Morph. 

       Alchemize. 

That which

 emitts, That Burns...

  That is measurable. 

I am 

The Data of God trying to understand itself. 

All this...

Is no thing most people 

Will look at me and perceive me by. 

To them, 

  It might as well be useless and intangible. 

To them, 

   It is static. 

As the light of God, 

  Is reflected in my discovery...

So is in those reflected what is void; 

Vastly triggering and pulling to the surface 

  What is hidden and lay deep, 

     Far too deep and buried within them. 

Surfaced often:

  Trauma's of memories 

      Activation of darkly internal fears 

         an immediate challenge to rise now, 

            Or RUN. 

all the while, 

I only an accidental messanger, 

  Often to no knowledge of being so 

     At the time. 

and then it would be lonely. 

My Entire Life. 

Too ahead, 

& too behind 

In such a way, 

  Challenges would burden exponentially. 

Difficult to Grow 

  In no love 

It was a miracle 

  I became it. 

Most....

Wouldn't know. 

I feel their judgements in my temples. 

  I see past their jealousy and green eyes...

and how it stems from 

  No book reading of mine. 

The judgements always come from the outside, 

  Before we take them in, 

    Make them ours, 

  

And use them to identify. 

So....

They would not know. 

They see me from an outside lense, muddied by the filters of their environment and perspectives. 

I feel HOW they do...

But what concern of it is mine really? 

Had they TRULY concerned themselves with me? 

I was lonely. 

And not just that...

I was 

LEFT alone. 

So....

I found God on my own. 

.... and that, 

      More than anything most can begin to fathom, 

That...

Is what I am. 

Those who seek God, 

     Know. 

Seek Him. 

   Be Love at all Costs. 

      Practice Forgiveness 

        as a form of Religious Wholeness. 

Heal. 

and know you are Perfect 

                         In your imperfections

because if I can love this way, 

Then to me it is proof God is Real. 

and if I can scathe the surface of this 

   Ocean that Christ did unveil...

Then I know how much God loves you, 

   Regardless of the fails. 

This is 

    Of the most profound. 

To KNOW we are loved

    Because we can love, ourselves.