I watch her stop a' second, and almost jump as she places her hand on her gut.
She doesn't want to know what they have to say.
She reluctantly, waits, for the messages to load...
And I watch her lean against the elevator door...judging herself, for the thudding gut that just knocked her back and to her attention. She soars over and through all the thought forms invading her.
And even though she doesn't believe in "bad", she FEELS bad. And feels the heart break in and out,
Gut pulled. Feels the invasion in and out, feeding on her energy.
There are "things" feeding on her light.
She thinks she is bad.
I'm a notion of her.
Also in and out.
Getting pulled and rocked
By the sea we are all so intrinsically.
The more she "shines her light" bright in the world...
The more resistance she meets...
And it is...
Quite frankly,
From an observers point of view,
A lot.
It is a lot on a person who always wished and hoped for better...
But as she "got better"...
The world would only seem to worsen against that.
So it's ironic for her.
I think, personally...
She's reached stage two in three.
Being...
That now is she fully having to realize..
That there will be tension EVERYWHERE.-
Internal, external..
And that the only way through that tension...
Is to make herself "a walking heaven"..
A walking place of peace.
"To be so strong, THAT NO-Thing can disturb your peace of mind"
So she shut the app,
And opened a new one.
And started writing.
Writing about the feeling. The notice.
"What is it you need, Ariel?"...
And I stepped out to observe for her.
Is there a conclusion?
Sure:
Keep being...
And BEING so strong
In who you are
That nothing
Can disturb your peace of mind.
I, personally?
I think she's "well"
On her way!
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