Author's Note:
Being in two spaces at once, I find myself still processing the old- the hell I just slow-walked myself out of.
The other space is the new. The gift of hope, love, possibility, and embracing change along with my responsibilities.
One Path was wrought with forced healing and trauma compounded. The other is full of what's possible and an inspiration that has begun to drive my days with motivation and energy, finally.
The thing is, neither of these paths are mutually exclusive.
I have been using music and writing as a means to finish up my very painful healing process this year.
This song continues to play in my head. As I sing it myself.
As I use it for a means of my own voice.
It is so visceral, and perfectly depicting some of my strongest, saddest, and most angry emotions.
It is in the tone, the betrayal, the desperation.
It is in the anger and how that changes us.
I used MY anger...to restore myself.
To give myself permission to break free.
As I continue on my Somatic Healing journey,
This song has helped me the most! Right in this moment. Right when I needed it.
And I will play it out until I am free and clear of any of these emotions.
Somatic Release can look like singing, dancing, mindful crying, and walked through self-healing sessions.
The beauty in this song, is embracing the dark with the light.
It is the raw, unfiltered and tangled language of emotions.
In my case...it wasn't a "Her" I competed with as the title suggests. It was Vodka. It was manipulation. It was the "set-up".
It was betrayal. And it fucking burned.
Not by just one. But by those I loved the most...
I love music. I hope you can enjoy this with me!
Namaste.
By: Jessie Reyez
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