Obsessions

 

Had you gone on a bender, 

   To meet me in between? 

       Addiction of your choosing? 

I inhale nicotine like it's Xanax. 

  Take shots of the hard 

    Just to numb the drama's angst. 

I participate 

  against my own better judgement 

    all that I intake, 

  Souring myself so, or punishing her; 

    Both or which, 

       I can't really say. 

I understand the Obsession, 

   As aren't you and I, 

      A bit one in the same? 

Feeding and stuffing it all down, 

  Because it's often too much to take? 

I understand the mind unraveling, 

  The digestion of the mistakes.

I understand guilt, embarrassment,  

   and shame, 

and the love from ourselves 

  They steal away...

I understand easing into the addictions, 

  To buy time as we wait. 

It's the temperance of 

  The balancing act, 

  That ushers us along 

    Our string of fate...

But it is a task to balance, 

Guilt, Fear, & Shame. 

You have had your process, 

  As well, myself just the same. 

Let us now remember more, 

  The Love that captures hate. 

Let us release together, 

  These dark foes of ours, and replace

Let us replace these voids deep within, 

  With the Light of Love & Grace. 

Be graceful to yourself, 

  In the face of all your mistakes...

After all, we are only human, 

  and our inner children need to feel safe. 

How can we heal if we punish ourselves so? 

  If we deny the mercy of grace? 

In fact the more you judge yourself, 

  The more you ban your face. 

So let us surrender it all, 

  Regardless our process or place; 

Let us turn our focus now, 

  To the better choices we can make.