Questions I Ponder

 

Will you hold my life? 

Does that scare you? The notion? The thought? 

I wonder, is it alright, to just be scared together? 

Whatever you need, I will do it! 

Will you do the same for me? 

Will you hold my life? Or is it too big? 

Too much responsibility? 

Because if so, I can let go. 

You were always good at being gone anyhow. 

But what keeps me up at night, 

Is you. 

Ruminating in my stomach, and gut, and blood, and body; constant. 

Ever there. 

and I am aware of what keeps me up at night. 

Aware of you, pressing on me. 

Aware of far too much without you to share it with. 

But what I wonder, 

Is if anywhere in you, you have the courage and strength to bare it? 

The stamina of body and spirit, 

To bare it? 

I wonder if I crawled into your chest, if you might keep me? 

If I might stay? 

If I might love you instead, of the life I have given away? 

What I wonder...

Is if you might this time around, 

Let me love you? 

Because I do. 

Pure and simple and true. 

and it might be hard. Isn't it all anyway? 

But what I wonder...

Is if in each other....

In each other...

We hold the keys to unleash the flood gates? 

To unlock my cage? 

And how will we ever know, 

If time is slow, 

and absent of the other's physical presence? 

Where 5D meets 3D and the real journey begins? 

It starts with being friends. 

Letting authenticity 

Be 

Our guiding force. 

Letting what will flow 

  do so

Without impediment. 

Can we re-create ourselves? 

Together? 

What I wonder...

Is if you have this in you? 

If you want to? 

If you want to?