Have not meant anything.
I hear your voice, lulling me.
You took me in, promising.
Promising it would or wouldn't mean anything...
Refusing to tell me when...
When it would.
When it wouldn't.
Until I asked; until I stopped NOT wanting to know.
You gave me chills, and now your memory, distant and cold.
Lost out their in a wonderland.
I feel you..
But I am not so sure you will ever feel me...
Quite like that.
Miss you even- a good best friend...
Til I realized it might have meant nothing to you.
I wouldn't know.
And I couldn't.
You never wanted to love me like that-
Won't.
But you were a sweet growth..
A moment for me,
Til I realized I was watering something that simply doesn't need that much.
Over emphasized.
Lost.
You float in the cosmos...
And I kiss your hand slowly,
And say goodbye.
You may never know,
What I had in my heart for you.
And these tears hit my palms,
I watch myself spill them for you-
Barely glanced my way.
Barely a person in my own right,
Accept for a body in your night-
My heart sinks.
That,
Was the one hard thing to accept.
In all my giving, I'd started to see...
I was the only one.
So I said a bittersweet goodbye,
Before you came and swept me away,
For one last sting.
You will never know, all I saw in you.
And I will never know, how you could have loved me...
Though I had longed to.
Merely...
Merely,
A ghost, now.
We are only memories.
And you choose
What you choose...
To hang to,
Just as I do.
I actually miss you.
I always did, once I'd walk away;
Once that would proceed not hearing from you.
But life stings, as she always does, and I wipe away my tears, as I shove down the let-down
From yet another "friend".
"Heh", I roll my eyes to myself- "friend".
That's a word,
That I wished
Had more meaning
In today's world.
I loved you.
It really hurt,
You chose this.
And now we choose this,
Together.
Never.
Ever.
You have become the night sky's;
Never supposed to be mine.
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