An Angel's Retire

                                                          I know you must be tormented-
  the nihilist of narcissistic obsessions;
                                                    weaving in and out only,

                                                                                      of your own grandeur , your own illusions,

while underneath,

you steep some falsetto's
  of echoing hatred, seeping of self despise.



  The allure of the dark, a strange drawl; an elusive torment,
because as all time passes, not the veil between
  you nor I

That never lifts.


Every thought, behind every breath is blanketed-
  the charcoals like wretched claws,
pulling me deep
I imagine, this place, is the place we meet.
perhaps more capable of Love, Dark Thing,
what it is that binds us,
  is the sweet promise of your blindfolds,
and my hands bound.

For a night, your Demons take me to Bed, while I finally allow them this one occasion,
to lay with an Angel-
  that is bound you had made me-
    that I would do that for you
and only you.


  All the corners of my own ego
cower more, as loss of concern
  drive's passion's inferno.

Cloaked, I decided long ago,
 to embrace the Shadow of my God,

Much as I embrace the life.

  Cowardly, I stay where it's warm, yet under shade,
never walking into the path of your domination...fearful..
  that i might die
by the bind of you.

Twas the bind by both, then devour and consume me whole- I will live out my days on this Earth, dancing our shadows and not bound by any taboo of goodness.

  and only you, can blindfold me.  By the moonlight.  by your will.
and by the very real cloth, that you place over my eyes, and knot behind my head.

kneeled,  once and for all,
might i submit,
thy dance be done.

  naked, a moon shade casting through the window
and my body, finally ownly yours
to do with
  as you please.

  my flesh glowing a silver blue from the night sky
shades casted against my curves,
now every inch yours, as you view my kneeled submission, in wrapped hands,
begging eyes, and your gag to test
  my commitment.

I beg you
to bind me.

to own me.

to never stop.

to let me in.

to open to the way i want to love you,
as you open to the way I want to be loved.

let me drag you into the light,
as you soil
  my every belief system,

and replace it with something
  we make.
something that is ours.
where we are an us.

and I will worry nothing more
of this world,
nor her need of God.

   This is how much I love you.
To give you everything.  yet no fool...

i will die by you, or leave-  fool is all lovers, and you,
 as cowardly as I.

  Blindfold your Angel.  Snuff her might.  Allow her submission.
bare her.
  Make our Children.
Love.

and let us,
Demon, Angel, and Man

defy God.

Bare me.
and let us defy all reason.
  Give our children the curse and might of our divine throwns,
Good and Evil,

and take my hand.
  Bind it in daylight by ring,
and night, by band

  and come morning I can reveal God's heaven..
   while night, we roam, dancing the Devil's great Test.

I am willing to meet you half way- to dip my body in the black,
and see if I still emerge.

  Can you, Man and Demons,
face the love and warmth of Dawn's Halo?

Can you bathe in the Spring of Divine will, and emerge still Dark?
 I am a testatment that the dark always lives,

as does the light, My Life, My Love.

Devour me.

Bare me.

Meet me.

I miss the kingdom you created-
  psychotic and lustful,
of the devil's promise alone.

God remained, the love between us, in all that darkness.
  the only light,
and it was enough.

I never submitted.
  I wasn't taught to.
not but for God.

and you,
 you were the only one to dispel that.
to promise of an abyss that lured me desperately.
  you pressed  the sins of Eve
right out of my obedience,

and together,
we ate of fruits we could never undo.

I fell in Love, with the Enemy.

  never submitted,
til' now, I beg.