Hail Storm Halo

I was glad when you showed your colors; 

Needing an excuse was all.

It was always in my nature to love you...but it's true I have grown an armour I couldn't even have before; 

The restaurant industry would do that! 

Loving people like you, in consciousness...

Would do that! 

They succeeded magnanimously! 

I see now, what a fool I had been. 

Your brother treating me better in 3 meager days what I had given you years for. 

He never called though...

Even for a great date, I wouldn't expect him to. 

I didn't mean to. 

But you were so mean. 

And I guess, I decided...

So could I be. 

Besides...

You straight up said you don't want me. 

So...

I let you not have me, and shared myself instead. 

Mostly because I loved you, with Haunt. 

In insane love only, did my actions make sense. 

It is one or two years later..

And him with me- 

Not about you. 

But I thought about you, didn't i? 

Reflection. 

And words like sociopath, counteract drunken I Love you's and "never returned". 

Your birthday passed. 

And although I am glad we are not together, I know our Kharma burns. 

You treat me like I'm trash, 

So I let myself be trash to you, 

While I adorn myself in Goddess amulets, and allow the distant worship of far away men. 

In reality, 

I leave you all behind and focus anew. 

Love, 

Is love, 

And there are certain things it wouldn't do...

So u forgive you...

But I will not forget how you have met me. Without asking why I looked like I was dying, while I was going on, 

Living for you. 

But I am glad I see your smokey tongues, and gel, like tar, as words that stick without thought. I deserve to be loved, the way I love. And while I was willing to be consumed by you...I have laid her down- the teenage lost soul, that would sell any part of herself for a little need. 

Love is scarce. I accept that! 

Knowing, it is on me, to create. Spread. And find. 

She had been a crazy hail storm, and I'm just trying to aquaint myself better this time!