I am lost In my sexuality,
Swimming beneathe a dark hole of lucid dreams
And vivid memories.
I breathe the flash liquid of deprivation
And cling to the memory of hands on me at 4...
Or was it age three or six?
Their faces I remember but their fingers I feel all over again,
As vivid as though it were yesterday,
And I am back there
Suspended in that moment in time.
Scoffed, and scorned, I see through a veiled glass, another world between you and I.
I can almost touch it, stretching, reaching, in the in-between.
Always searching for ways to make sense of it,
Always wandering in wonder.
Though it be a blemished world, there is no denying some Godhead beneathe the beauty, of any single thing. Something sacred lies beneath each surface
And I am swimming in reds and liquid deeps, refraining from lingering
Here
Too long.
I am a rebel, perhaps, whom hates this body...but I seek refinement. Humility. Servitude.
The deep is nothing I can not handle.
Tuesday, March 21, 2017
Monday, March 20, 2017
The Wine Hour-Glass
Impending,
Pending,
Liquefying as fluid stardust...
Evaporated. Dispersed.
Submersed.
Gone.
Under your belly, I refrain from breath, testing myself,
Gasping and scattering in flashbacks.
The history of malintent, as extenuated as another blade of grass-
A Hellish karmic cycle of thought prisons and breaking free.
I have slipped back into some blanket of time. A reversal of choices made so I can re-choose an outcome. Sipping on me is as though sinking into an hourglass of continuos sands.
My pebbles-scores of ware from other lands.
Of pearls or lavas, titanium, or stone, my sands come from a universe.
A sip, starts the journey.
A sea of definitives, I lumber across the deep red, engulfed in a buoyant repeal of state
I could be trapped here forever, and yet always must I,
Return.
Pending,
Liquefying as fluid stardust...
Evaporated. Dispersed.
Submersed.
Gone.
Under your belly, I refrain from breath, testing myself,
Gasping and scattering in flashbacks.
The history of malintent, as extenuated as another blade of grass-
A Hellish karmic cycle of thought prisons and breaking free.
I have slipped back into some blanket of time. A reversal of choices made so I can re-choose an outcome. Sipping on me is as though sinking into an hourglass of continuos sands.
My pebbles-scores of ware from other lands.
Of pearls or lavas, titanium, or stone, my sands come from a universe.
A sip, starts the journey.
A sea of definitives, I lumber across the deep red, engulfed in a buoyant repeal of state
I could be trapped here forever, and yet always must I,
Return.
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