The Island

"Take it away" howls the under breath in whispers

"Caress my hair back, and shed this pain from my brow,
my being"

the torchered squeezing, the air being parched up

as though life is the sponge,

and I am merely the dying innocent...

playing my role,

getting caught up in the war between humanity

and Mother Earth.

I am a mutt,

or hybrid,

Of both race,

Equally guilty, muddy,

Dirtied by the blood on every hand and yet

"Some" of it is of God"...

God

Does

War....

And yet

God

Is

Love.

...Like I said,

Caress me...

Take it away...

the blood,

the pain,

The dying innocent...

Kiss me sweet, the Kiss of Life...

Shed your Light, and break me free from this corner of darkness

On this side of the world,

On this side of the war...

I am suffocating!

The breath being squeezed out of me, the point so much less clear when breath and life are seconds haunting you...

You haunt me

At any given moment,

Soaking it, squeezing it up,

Taking it...

Mother, Ma, Ky, Am, A....

You haunt me like piano keys playing life,

Following, bumbling

The tune of emotion,

the pain,

the chase,

The understanding...

And everything mysterious that follows.

Under my Love Tree,

I stand alook at the colossal branches,

Charred and black as though Fire has taken them only to their last breath.

It is me...

The death in me

The left over in me...

The Pheonix.

The Suffocate.

I know what I am seeing

Is my death.

Dark, deep, scary...

Alone.

After all the days of watering...

After so many seasons of rain and shine,

Flowers and life...

I stand here alone...

In the dark,

As if it all just got up and moved a pasture away...

Here the moon barely resides to light any land

And it is cold as it is blazing...

Chilling and numbing the life out our our bodies.

My Tree of Light,

Tree of Life

Tree of Love...

Something is happening to us.

Something coming...

And something meant to be.

Something is happening to you and me.

So I'll sit here,

And let it be.

Sit here under my dying tree.

Sit here in the death, the charred,

And wait...

Wait to...

Just wait...

Wait to see if the ashes will rise...

If there is still something beneath...

If there is still life left..

If there is life yet.

The Difference

She threw herself to the ground, threw her arms around my legs and cried, 

"I don't wanna be mean to you anymore"...

Isn't it strange how one moment we wait for, for eternity

Can make every difference in the world...

Each difference, a miracle

Each moment, never an opportunity lost.

What is love if not another opportunity given?

A freedom we do not know how to give...

A grace that we feel we've fallen far from...

I do not wish to play in this game anymore!

The game of condition, the illusion of "love"...

The game of you be and do as I wish because this is "Us"...

I do not wish to worry anymore about what any of it means to anyone else,

For the eyes of love can be a difficult perception to come by!

Well here's the truth, Maria Mahealani...

I love you!
I love you beyond reasonability and full well into faith...

I love you for everything you can be that is good and forgive everything in you that you struggle with,
Because you have showed this to me...

A better way to love.

I accept everything in you that is human, for I see now,
Everything that hurts in you, is mine...

I love you because if not you deserving to be loved greatly, you deserve even more to be loved greatly by the person you would long to be loved by the most...

In depth.

I love you because love is a miracle you keep showing me the path to...

In the oddest ways,
In ways more revealing of God than even imagined...

I love you because you reveal to me that the path of God

However far it seems from grace...

But that too, is just the devil's play...

The eternal lie...

And not love at all...

For grace...

Is The All...

Just as we are...

And this is why, Mahealani...

I keep loving you....

Because I love myself!

Because I know...we both deserve somebody taking a chance on the other.

I love you because to do so the RIGHT way,

Is my kharmic destiny.